AngelHut : + [ Glittering Angel] +

As usual, went for Inline Skate in the morning followed by Latin Cha Cha then Inline Skate again at late noon. Was actually looking forward to going out tonight but well, things do not always go the way we plan.

I had thought that we could meet up about 7.30pm to have dinner but in the afternoon, he told me 8pm. Fine, then at about 7.30pm, he texted me that we could only meet at 9pm. I was really hungry. I am anaemic. If I don't eat, I will feel faint.

I knew that I could not wait till 9pm so I replied him that we would meet another day when he can be more free and perhaps, stick to his promised time. And strangely, he just got angry at me and said not to meet ever again. I was totally shocked and asked what was up with him but he just mentioned not to spoil both our weekend and to just enjoy my dinner.

Now, this is really appalling. I know that he has committments and did not complain when he postponed the time to 8pm. But now that he could not make it at 9pm, was it wrong of me to think of my health and go ahead for dinner myself?

I don't like arguments or fights. His sudden mood change scares me. He said before that I am very temperamental. I admit that sometimes I am. But today, in the earlier scenario, I was not even throwing any temper. I just did not want to end up fainting like I did before, from hunger, simply cos I am anaemic and I have a low sugar count.

He mentioned over sms (after I said something on MSN which he found really rude) just a few days ago that I always think of people hurting me but not when I hurt people. I admit that sometimes I can be insensitive but more importantly, I think sms and MSN are very bad communication medium and can cause misunderstandings easily. I prefer to talk, especially when I want to bring my point across properly, without people thinking that I am insinuating otherwise.

Now, just thinking back about earlier and also what he had mentioned a few days ago, I am starting to wonder if I am really such a prick that friends dislike me so much. I don't treat many guys as good friends, so when they feedback anything to me, I really will take them as genuine comments and try to change for the better if I can.

It's true that I think too much at times. However, this time round, perhaps it is really true that he doesn't ever want to see or hear from me anymore. I never like to be deemed as a pest and perhaps family committments made him react so. Nonetheless, perhaps I really should just stop contacting him as he had wished.

Oh well, though there aren't many guys that I enjoy going out with, I can always go out with my ever-so-busy gal friends. Yah, think I shall do so and enjoy myself instead of feeling so clueless on why someone is mad at me on a weekend. Time to get myself busy!