"Guys who care will call."

Those words keep ringing in my ears. Subconsciously in my heart, I do know that very well. But I have been finding excuses for him. Telling myself he is busy. Telling myself he is tired.

Everytime he replied to my sms, I would be so happy and thought that amidst his busy schedule, he still called and that was so sweet of him. I was completely blinded that I am always the one who sms/call him first. His reply is always how busy he is.

I told him last night when he called (after I sms-ed him to remind him that he had promised to call) that if I do not sms/call him, he would also not initiate. As usual, his reply was how busy he was.

As usual, I did not hear from him whole of today too and earlier, I finally sms-ed him the same words as last night. "If I do not sms/call you, you will never bother to contact me." With that, I deleted his contact off my mobile phone. Although I would very much want him to contact me, perhaps it would be better if he never sms/call again.

No, I am not in love with him. But yes, I like him. I don't usually get attracted to a guy easily. No, he is not rich or good-looking. But I just feel very comfortable with him. Perhaps I should not trust this feeling too much. He could have been putting up a pretense. Nonetheless, I do know now, that if men care, they will call. As such I conclude that he doesn't really care. Or should I say he doesn't care about me enough to call. Now, that hurts. Although he was the one who expressed interest from the beginning, perhaps it was just a passing emotion for him. Maybe lust. I just don't wish to find excuses for him no more.

Life goes on and although he is still fresh in my mind/heart for now, I did not memorise his number, so if he doesn't contact me, I know I will be able to erase him off my life completely in 2 weeks time. Pray hard that Mr Busy here will not bother to sms/call for the next 2 weeks least it stirs my feelings again.

I have been re-iterating that I don't wanna date workaholic men who place career/job over me. In fact, way above me. Yet I still keep meeting such men. ARGH! Well, I just want to close this chapter.

Workaholics, kindly stay away from me. All I want is sincerity and genuinity. PLEASE!